speak euur mind;

is it just me or tha people who were so wrapped up in their egoism that they couldn't take a slightly negative opinion, whether is it about their life, their character, or simply, things?

so rena said that i had this L.A.-STYLE that people might not be able to take, because i

am so straightforward, i hurt people's feeling.
show my emotions on my face.
do things my own way.
don't give a damn about what others think of me.

first thing first, imma 100% chinese [okae mabbie not 100% cause my mum's indonesian], and i had never grow up in L.A. even though i would DIE to be able to have that chance, i don't study in L.A. and tha onlie thing that i had connection with L.A. is probably my accent due to absorbing in too many hollywood movies since young.

but then again, is it WRONG to be straightforward?

i mean, i totallie lurfe rena and if it wasn't fer her, i wouldn't even survived through the classes, so this post is to those who think imma ABNORMAL.

do eu actuallie feel better if eu say something against euur wish and never get euur opinion across? do eu actuallie think that others will label eu as "understanding" if eu just accept whatever shat that comes across euur wae?

NO.

is it wrong to show emotions on face? mabbie yes, cause mabbie my EQ is a lil lower than all of eu, but what eu see is what eu get. if imma happie, imma happie. if imma pissed, imma pissed. how do eu expect me to go around carryin a bittergourd's face when deep down imma SO happie, i wanna strangle somebody? can eu control euur emotions?

NO.

but imma still tryin not to affect others with my mood.

is it wrong to do things my way? so i may be a lil stubborn and refused to listen to advices sometimes, but most of tha times i would, if eu speak nicely to me. as in, don't force me into heeding euur advices, and don't label me as freak if i don't follow what eu said cause i decide for my own life. so does doing things euur way counted a sin?

NO.

is it wrong to disregard what others think about me? this is MY life, and it's not like their opinions will grant me a dae longer or shorter in this earth, nor can they changed anything about me, so why bother? i mean, if it's a CONSTRUCTIVE opinion, like imma reallie hurtin someone without knowing [cause eu guys should know imma DAMN slow in realizin stuffs liddat] or eu just plainly think that what imma doin is annoyin eu. but no one wants eu to define me. nobody tells me what to do, not even eu. so just let me live my life, and stay back wuncha? then again, i repeated, make-sense opinion are alwaes welcome. if eu haf comments about me, SHOVE IT IN MY FACE. so livin my own life and held my head high is somethin condemnable?

NO.

so before tha next time eu opened euur mouth and start to rant about how "bitchy" mel is to eu and everythin, shuddup. everyone's no perfect, not even eu.

*mwahs @ 6:19 PM