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Tuesday, November 17, 2009

i did i think something very very stupid.

*mwahs @ 2:44 PM

Monday, November 16, 2009

i feel like a huge part of me is missing.

i don't know why, but somehow i feel like a huge chunk of my life is missing.

how do you keep all the one you loves all together? how do you conquer distances and time differences? how do you tell them that even though you don't see each other, you don't hear from each other that often, you can't take part in stages of their lives - doesn't mean you don't miss them and you still love them as much as before?

wouldn't it be nice if i can have a box, and i can put everyone i love in that box? i don't need facebook, i don't need cellphones, i don't need any mediums to show my love. i just open the box, be inside and be surrounded by the loves of my life. no shitty different continents and timezones - for just that one moment, we are together.

You never know the biggest day of your life is your biggest day, not until it’s happening. You don’t recognize the biggest day of your life, not until you’re right in the middle of it. The day you commit to something or someone. The day you get your heart broken. The day you meet your soul mate. The day you realize there’s not enough time because you wanna live forever. Those are the biggest days. The perfect days. You know, it was a beautiful day.

*mwahs @ 6:58 PM

big words, big actions;

sometimes you don't need big words to express how you feel. you don't need grand gestures. you don't need fancy sugar-coated sentences.

it's the sincerity behind the words and the actions to make something worthy. to make the moment sparkles. to make the love lasts.

Did you say it? "I love you. I don't ever want to live without you. You changed my life." Did you say it? Make a plan. Set a goal. Work towards it, but every now and then, look around; Drink it in 'cause this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow.

*mwahs @ 11:59 AM

Monday, November 09, 2009

tokyo is getting back to its original goodness. it only comes so rarely when you keep those you love and who loves you fucking near.

1. something interesting might happen to me. pray for me!

2. need to stay away from the ______ circle. too much dramas & rock and roll going on.

3. you need a new distraction to get over a distraction.
> i think i have a new distraction. it's mildly distracting me from my past distractor, but the past distractor is still a huge distraction just because it's damn distracting. the recent distractions it caused is distracting me from my new distractor, although i have to say that the new distractor is doing a pretty awesome job at distracting as well.

4. you mother fucking piece of hot ass. i miss you.

> you're a hot mess and imma falling for you.

5. i have an awesome life. don't hate.

*mwahs @ 8:28 PM

Monday, October 19, 2009

sometimes, all it takes is pure TALENT;

pure GAGA-ness;


pure HOT MESS;

to make the world go round.

*mwahs @ 4:26 PM

Friday, October 09, 2009

what a f e e l i n g;

there's tonnes of thoughts swimming in me right now. i feel like my chest's gonna burst with emotions anytime soon.

and no, its not anything dramatic. it's the aftermath of reading a really really good book + grey's anatomy ep 4 (oh the wussy side of alex, le sigh) + thai funny commercials + eating 10 ferrero rochers at one go.

i'd read so much books this week that my brain is over-brimmed with afterthoughts and raw emotions. if ONLY i could find a way to let it out... arghs, the agony of being a bookworm, AND having a photographic memory.

i was asking myself what do i wanna do for the rest of my life, and even though i love mass media and journalism, my heart still lies with travelling. and SO, i think imma gonna become those people who live somewhere for 2 months, work there and get to know the local culture, and move again. hippie for life, yay.

one of the few places i would REALLY wanna live would be bangkok. HAHA. don't ask me why, but i have a random soft spot for thai :) and of course greece!!! jason wants to move there permanently, and if he does imma gonna buy the house besides him and we'll be neighbours and we'll go to santorini again with his pillow HAHA.

london is OBVIOUS, it's nothing new since my heart is still in london (yes, it still is up to this day) and given the chance i would live there for more than a year. new york would be nice, and boston... at this rate, i might really go sign up to be a flight stewardess (i could see you dancing there, dinah!)

sighs. guess the travel bug in me is complaining. i haven't feed it properly since coming back to japan and it must hate me now, since i fed it almost every single weekend back in europe. sorry travel bug! you will be rewarded in winter break, i promise! :)

till then, imma gonna be a good girl and rock tokyo. and the library :)

april loves black coffee; i'm having a heart attack; we are banana pancakes :)

*mwahs @ 7:17 PM

Monday, October 05, 2009

you would not believe your eyes
if ten million fireflies lit up the world as i fell asleep
cause they'd fill the open air
and leave teardrops everywhere
you'd think me rude but i'd just stand and stare

i'd like to make myself believe
that planet earth turns slowly
its hard to say that i'd rather stay awake when i'm asleep
cause everything is never as it seems

cause i'd get a thousand hugs from ten thousand lightning bugs
as they tried to teach me how to dance
a foxtrot above my head
a sock hop beneath my bed
a disco ball is just hanging by a thread

when i fall asleep leave my door open just a crack
(please take me away from here)
cause i feel like such an insomniac
(please take me away from here)
why do i tire of counting sheep
(please take me away from here)
when i'm far too tired to fall asleep

to ten million fireflies
i'm weird cause i hate goodbyes
i got misty eyes as they said farewell
but i'll know where several are
if my dreams get real bizarre
cause i saved a few and i keep them in a jar

i'd like to make myself believe
that planet earth turns slowly
it's hard to say that i'd rather stay awake when i'm asleep
cause my dreams are bursting at the seams

*mwahs @ 3:16 PM